losing

hmm..kinda lost of direction of life.. guess this is the worst semester ever.. so many things were going 180 degree diffrent that what should be..sometimes will think:" why am I came to this world for" hmmm... for biology? or chemistry?! feel so ironically...

is this what its called "life" ? what is the greatest failure in life? gosh.. this is not the life that I wanted!!

青花瓷讲解

青花瓷 讲解

首先跟親愛的網友們分享此次填寫杰倫新專輯裡這首「青花瓷」的創作過程。前一陣子我認識了幾個鑑賞古董藝術的朋友，在與他們時而青銅、時而宋瓷、時而明清家具等橫跨千年談古論今的聊天中，觸發我想用那些傳世的國之瑰寶來當歌名的動機。當時第一個想到的便是青銅器，以殷商時期開始鑄造的青銅器來做為詞曲名，用青銅的厚實象徵愛情的堅真；以千年斑駁的銅鏽來比喻世事的滄桑；以器皿上難解的銘文來闡述誓言的神秘。但才剛開始落筆時便發現杰倫這首「青花瓷」的曲調溫柔委婉、淡雅脫俗，以至於我腦海中浮現的全是煙雨江南的畫面。又因當時的青銅器也同時製作成殺敵的兵器，這使得「青銅器」這三個字看來太過厚重不夠輕盈，充滿廝殺的硝煙味，於是尚在構思中的歌詞還未落筆便已放棄。

後來我再次選定宋朝時曾盛極一時的「汝窯」為歌名，主要原因是為它舉世無雙的珍稀度所震撼。因為戰亂的關係，與釉料配方跟燒製過程會窯變等因素，全世界現所傳世的汝窯珍品竟只有70餘件，堪稱國之瑰寶，彌足珍貴。但問題又來了，因為純正上品的汝窯，只有一種顏色，就是「天青色」，完全沒有任何花俏的紋飾，而且造型簡單素雅，在我看來猶如現今極簡主義大師的作品，雖有一種樸素的內涵，與經久耐看的質感，但總覺得不足以形容詭譎多變，愛恨兼具的愛情。雖然最後還是沒能用汝窯當歌詞名，但我在收集寫作資料的過程中，卻因為一句「雨過天青雲破處，這般顏色做將來。」的詞句，觸發我靈感而寫下副歌的第一句「天青色等煙雨」。「雨過天青雲破處」此話據傳語出宋徽宗，因當時的汝窯專供宋皇室使用，而窯官將汝窯瓷燒製完成後，請示宋徽宗為其色定名時，徽宗御批：「雨過天青雲破處，這般顏色做將來。」此後，天青色即為汝窯瓷欽定的顏色名。(此句另有一說為五代後周柴世宗所說)但後來我還是放棄用汝窯當歌名，除了因為它的特性不適用於纏綿誹側的愛情外，汝窯的名字也稍嫌不夠淒美。幾經轉折，最終歌名才確定用初燒於唐代至今已綿延一千多年為中國早期最具代表性的外銷藝術品 ─「青花瓷」。

當初當我確定了「天青色等煙雨」的歌詞後，沒多久就又順手寫下副歌第二句「而我在等妳」，於是副歌第一行的關鍵詞即孕育而出：「天青色等煙雨，而我在等妳」。因我歌詞裡所描述的天青色，是無法自己出現的，它必須耐心的等待一場不知何時會降臨的雨，才能夠在積雲散去的朗朗晴空以天青的顏色出現。因為雨過天晴後才會出現天青色，故必先降雨才能有天青，但我倒過來說，天青色在期待著雨天的來臨。還有，之所以用「煙雨」，而不用「降雨」，則純粹是因為煙雨的意境比較美。而我用「天青色等煙雨」此句來對仗較為白話的下一句「而我在等妳」，一連用了二個“等”字，是為來強調愛情裡最無力的無奈就是「等待」。換個散文式的說法就是：「這天氣的變幻莫測，那裡是我們平凡人所能掌握的呢？想看到純淨被雨洗滌過的天青色，就只能耐心的等待雨停，就如同我也只能被動而安靜的等待著不知何時才會出現的妳。」 這首青花瓷裡還出現「芭蕉」這個歌詞裡較不常出現的草本植物，實在是因為個人對「芭蕉」這款植物情有獨鍾莫名熱愛。就像椰子樹會讓人聯想南台灣，棕櫚樹等同於熱情的海灘，仙人掌的場景則理所當然在沙漠一樣，不知怎地，對於「芭蕉」，我就自然而然的會聯想起宋詞中煙雨江南裡的蘇州林園。如李煜的長相思裡就有「…秋風多，雨相和，簾外芭蕉三兩棵，夜長人奈何。」其實你只要仔細觀察宋詞裡常出現的植物，「芭蕉」出現的頻率還頗高。另外日本著名的俳句詩人松尾芭蕉，也是取芭蕉為自己的別名，這又讓芭蕉這植物增添些文人氣質。 '

還有順帶一提的是“惹”這個字在歌詞中的用法，是我從六祖慧能那句著名的揭語：「菩提本無樹，明鏡亦非台；本來無一物，何處惹塵埃」中得到的體會。因為「何處惹塵埃」其實也可寫成「何處“沾”塵埃」，或「何處“染”塵埃」，但因為沾與染的語意都沒有“惹”來的強烈，沾與染只是一種與他物接觸的用詞，但“惹”字卻有不請自來的招惹之意，主動性很強，比較具侵略與戲劇性。也因此，我用「門環惹銅綠」，而不用「門環染銅綠」；還有下一句歌詞我也是用「而我路過那江南小鎮“惹了”妳」，也不用「而我路過那江南小鎮“遇見”妳」是同樣的道理。其實在「南拳媽媽」的《花恋蝶》中我就已經用了“惹”這個字來描述我欲達到的意境，在第一段歌詞裡「幽幽歲月、浮生來回、屏風惹夕陽斜...」，我用「屏風“惹”夕陽斜」來表示黃昏時因屏風的阻擋致使照進屋內的光線傾斜，而不用較能讓人望文生義的「屏風“遮”夕陽斜」。

最後，關於「簾外芭蕉惹驟雨門環惹銅綠」的詞意，在此容我再累字贅語的解釋如下；一場大雨後滿園的翠綠，空氣裡充滿濕潤的水氣，芭蕉葉上滾動著晶瑩的雨滴，此時此景，最是詩意；還有那歷經朝代更迭，飽受歲月風霜後，依舊鑲嵌在門板上只是多了些鏽蝕斑駁的銅環，最富古意。我先用「簾外芭蕉惹驟雨門環惹銅綠」這段文言詞句以景入情，然後再承接較為白話的下一段「而我路過那江南小鎮惹了妳」以為對仗。因芭蕉與門環都是靜態的實物，只能被動的等驟雨，等歲月侵蝕後慢慢氧化的銅綠；但人稱代名詞的“我”卻跟芭蕉與門環不一樣，因為“我”是可以自由移動的，於是我偶然經過江南小鎮邂逅“惹了”妳，並不是被動的等妳，而是主動的去認識妳。所以雖然同樣都是用動詞的“惹”，但其主動與被動性卻迥然不同，而且在這段詞裡我一連用了三個“惹”字，字義相同，用法卻不同，饒富趣味。總之這首歌寫的頗為辛苦，常字字斟酌，句句推敲，通篇詞句真的幾乎快達到「增一分則太肥，減一分則太瘦」的境界，但如此卻也很有成就感。下次如有時間再將此篇「青花瓷」詞改寫成散文式的文章與大家分享囉！...(笑)

青花瓷 詞/方文山 曲/周杰倫
素胚勾勒出青花筆鋒濃轉淡
瓶身描繪的牡丹一如妳初妝
冉冉檀香透過窗心事我了然
宣紙上 走筆至此擱一半

釉色渲染仕女圖韻味被私藏
而妳嫣然的一笑如含苞待放
妳的美一縷飄散
去到我去不了的地方

天青色等煙雨
而我在等妳
炊煙裊裊昇起
隔江千萬里
在瓶底書漢隸仿前朝的飄逸
就當我 為遇見妳伏筆

天青色等煙雨 而我在等妳
月色被打撈起 暈開了結局
如傳世的青花瓷自顧自美麗
妳眼帶笑意

色白花青的錦鯉 躍然於碗底
臨摹宋體落款時 卻惦記著妳
妳隱藏在窯燒裡 千年的秘密
極細膩 猶如繡花針落地
簾外芭蕉惹驟雨門環惹銅綠
而我路過那江南小鎮惹了妳
在潑墨山水畫裡 妳從墨色深處被隱去

天青色等煙雨 而我在等妳
炊煙裊裊昇起 隔江千萬里
在瓶底書漢隸仿前朝的飄逸
就當我 為遇見妳伏筆

天青色等煙雨 而我在等妳
月色被打撈起 暈開了結局
如傳世的青花瓷自顧自美麗
妳眼帶笑意

JE

今天和一位好朋友谈了好久，有点不好意思。让她呆到凌晨5点。感觉就像回到过去了，原来注定会橦墙的爱情最终还是会橦墙。 或许爱情开始奇迹的发生， 但命运还是注定了。
大家跌了这一跤，她坚强了， 看开了。。觉得蛮不错嘛
这条人生的道路，还漫长得很。。
时间， 或许是事情的解药， 但我现在正服下毒药。。

its nice to be a DUM DUM sometimes~

qing hua ci

love~~

bu kong ying

nice

some pics

These are some random pictures for Korean ThanksGiving festival, mooncake festival, some pizzas that I made in pizza restaurent(100% homemade@!! from flour until the pizza came out from baking machine!!) and oh ya.. first time HUG a huge snake!

Bday!!!

Long time no see!!!!

Its been a while for my last post... well..another bday in USA..couple things special for this year bday.. got 3 bday parties in a week for me and 2 bday cakes.. wao...what an honor!! thx so much for everyone!! The first bday cake was made by my lovely..pretty..sexy roomates!! CHEESECAKE!!!! all of us dressed so formally...-.-" and of course MUST have some wine.. ( oh ya, received 3 wines and 1 sake as present!!) One of those was so good..hope I could bring it back to Msia, Im pretty sure its hard to find such a good wine but cheap price wine in MSIA!!

well..did a personal test recently and it came out my mentally age was 34!!!
wth..really swt..feel like so damn old after the test..

Although got into school team, but cant play...T-T got chance to play now, but.... ><

homecoming

Homecoming in my school...

korean

난 충분히 참았다고 생각해. 내가 얼마나 더 오래 기다려야 하니? 너에겐 아무것도 아닐 수 있겠지만, 난 아니야.
내 기분을 생각해 보기라도 했니? 너가 하는 행동은 너무 무책임해.왜 모든게 이렇게 빨리 변하는데?
넌 더이상 내가 아는 네가 아닌 것 같아. 지금 우리가 하는 게 우리의 미래를 위한 거라면 난 인내하고 너와 같이 할 수 있을 것 같지만, 지금으로서의 네 행동은 우리 모두에게 좋지 않다고 생각해.
지금 당장은 참고 기도할 뿐, 더이상 내가 뭘 어떻게 해야 하는지 모르겠어

Burning M

Burning M!!

This week is our best week EVER! ( School homecoming theme..) to celebrate ths wonderful week, we had the BURNING M activity. Just like the name, there was a big M to be burned.. lol

it was raining outside..and it was a windy night..I didnt wear any jackat and standing outside for almost an hour..hopfully wont get sick..and I cant get sick!!!

and...FINALLY i got chance to take picture with our school mascot, DRAGON!!! It seldom appear to public...waiting for a year finally got it..so touching T-T

roommates

I didnt take any photos with roommates before, they are complaining..people wondering who are they and etc..so..they decided to take some pics at some cool place..so this what brought us here...

looked cool in pics?? just for pics.. hahha..took those pic abt 12.30am, sand a special bridge in moorhead..some more its cold outside there,

心灵交战

现实的世界
早已经妥协放弃
再蜕变变变
黑暗万变在计划
诱惑欺骗
心灵交战
持续不断
各地在挑战
激昂愤慨因为爱想改变这世代
炫丽影像四散场面气派
幻像假象负面思想覆盖
一点一点试着控制这心态
谁能临危不乱你我去等待

梦已经被毁坏
拿什么重新灌溉
心已经被出卖
暴露破碎的内在
自由意志是武器也是要害
答案左右摇摆忽明忽暗界限不明白
心灵交战谁宣判这过犯
命定向天呼喊烈火无止尽的扩散
再惊险再震撼
谁能带我走过幽谷的地带

我怎么能有希望
有期待有未来
我怎么证明爱的存在
我怎么摆脱这纠缠
让无奈去掩埋残骸

维尼熊

一身黄皮肤
大耳朵 红衣服
还有一只跳跳虎
拥有它就永远幸福

它是我好友
陪我笑陪我哭
尤其当我最无助
就躲在它怀里苦

梦里 和它一起采蜜 醒后， 希望能停止哭泣

因为害怕失去你
以为自己够坚定
以为自己靠自己 就不会有心无力

因为已要失去你
以为明白你心情
以为自己骗自己 就能够雨过天晴

谁才是我永远的小熊维尼？

范逸臣 - Serena (feat. 殷悅 MELODY) MV

what to say?? just suit me..

small gathering

Who am i

Who am I? What am I doing? I really dunno..I think I has lost myself.. Why I dun have any feelings when got into school soccer team? Why Im not that crazy about soccer already?? Why I dun have any motivation in everything ? Whats going on to me? Too many pressure from no where? Too many things need to settle? Too many things bothering me??

I really dunno..I just know if this still happening for couple months..I will become mad..
god bless me...........................

soccer

Cant believe I got in University Soccer team!!! Although feel like its a big honor, cuz can travel to other states like wisconsin, iowa, chicago, north dakota, south dakota..etc

BUT..doctor said that my leg was broken, and i no longer can play soccer!! T-T sigh.. really wanna say goodbye to football forever?? bu4 kan1 xin1 la!!!!! ><

happy merdeka

We had a small gathering for the merdeka..well..lots of friends from other countries also join us.. we just chillex ( chill out + relax ) for the whole night.. although this place is small, but glad to ave some malaysians here also, some more this sem 3 more malaysians came over..

p/s : happy bday mum!

LA Trip in summer 2007

Its been a while after my last post in thius blog..keke..cuz Summer holiday ma..lazy + no time to write..I have been to LA more than 2 weeks for exploring the cities in LA..( too bad cant go San Francisco, but it was ok, can go next time also, spent too much money this time d..muahaha)

Dunno what to write, feeling lazy for upload the photos also, I have more than 1000 photos for the trips d.. so I just select the best photos that I think..tata

still need to settle down in my new house..